Satan's Grip

Do you ever feel like all of your negative thoughts about yourself and how the world perceives you all attack you at the same time?

I feel like all of my self-worth and satisfaction with the world and life I've been given have disappeared; like any attempt at getting them back will be half-hearted and pointless. Satan can't be everywhere at one time, so he sends down these demons to torment us and try to tear to shreds all that Christ has built up in our hearts. He is jealous of Jesus and hates people, but wants to turn us against Jesus so that we will follow him instead. Those demons are definitely trying to rip into my heart, to destroy all the happiness and satisfaction that Christ has given me- I can feel it.

A couple of hours ago I took a nap, and during that nap I had a dream. In that dream, I was trying to live a life that is pleasing to God since He's my father and He loves me so much that he sent his Son to die for me (the least I could do is devote my life to Him). Anyway, I was on a mission to make the perfect cake (bear with me here; this cake was for God and I wanted to make it to the best of my human capacity) and Satan kept getting in the way. He was continually throwing all these obstacles in my way, and my journey became similar to a video game. Dodging this way and that, I was continually making my ascent toward making this perfect cake.

The more I kept persisting, the more frustrated Satan became. He didn't understand why I would want to keep going through all this stuff that he kept throwing at me. I had this awareness that God was guiding me through it, but I couldn't see Him at any point.

It's funny how dreams can be completely representative of what's going on in your subconscious. Satan is throwing so much at me right now, and if I don't rely on God to guide me through it, Satan's just going to keep chipping away at my heart until it's completely broken and I turn from God. That's his ultimate goal- turn God's people against their Lord.

Are you letting the demons of the world chip away at your heart? Pray that you won't forget God's love and the comfort He provides, that you will trust in Him to carry you through your troubles.


"The Lord replied: 'The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you.'" ("Footprints in the Sand" by Mary Stevenson)