Mighty to Save

A great song that I think everyone should know: (as sung by Hillsong United)

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

My Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as You find me
All my fears & failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender (I surrender)

My Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Shine Your light &
Let the whole world see
We're singing
For the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus

You're the Savior
You can move the mountains
Lord You are mighty to save
You are mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
You rose & conquered the grave
Yes You conquered the grave

How many times can I break till I shatter?

WARNING: major venting post. I have no intention of writing posts like this often, I just need to get this junk off my chest.

What to do, what to do... it's like one bad thing after another is getting thrown at me right now... like, initially I was thinking "okay, only a couple of small bad things happened, it's cool. life is still good." but now it's just getting ridiculous. it starts with not getting enough hours at work. they have cut back hours for everybody and aren't offering extra. then i come about two breaths short of throwing up a few days ago and felt nauseous all the next day; that was fun. then i find out that that this project i have been working on all week i did completely wrong, and i spent hours upon hours on it. then i find out my great grandma had another stroke and is dying. then i found out both my snails died. then i find out i'm going to have around 150 pages of reading for my classes... every night this semester. then i find out that civil war has broken out in kenya, so the school of ed doesn't do student teaching there anymore. what the HECK is going on???

I really have tried to be upbeat no matter what this semester, but i'm having a really hard time with that right now.

UPDATE: things got so much better. only one snail died, great grandma is going to live a little while longer, and now I'm getting more hours at work than ever before! (both a blessing and a curse)

Gee Willikers.

Where is this life taking me? I have a feeling any random stranger could give me a better answer than I can give myself. There are so many things I want to do, so many things that I want to see... I don't even know where to begin. The problem is, once I actually do get my foot in the door or find a way to begin, I'm scared to follow through. Taking a job at Yellowstone is a huge step for me; I'll be spending the entire summer away from home and will not know a single person there.

This past summer, even though I put myself in a completely different environment with people I had never met before and I place I had never even seen before, at least I was still in Indiana. If I didn't make any friends, got tired of camp, or just wanted to get away, I could go home for the weekend. In Wyoming, I have no place to go... no retreat. This will really give me the opportunity to get a taste of what I think I want for the rest of my life, though. If I can't handle being a couple of states away for 2 months, how could I handle being an entire ocean away in Kenya for student teaching for 4 months?? How could I handle being in the Peace Corps or being a missionary?

I'm excited and terrified. This could either be the best summer of my life or possibly the worst summer of my life. At least I'll have Old Faithful to keep me company.

Yeah. Another blog. =]

My unleashing begins...

Now.

Expect the unexpected, because chances are you're going to get it in this blog. I think it might have something to do with having all these pent-up dreams that are ripping at the seams to explode into reality.

Confession: I am overcome with this horrible, horrible feeling whenever I see something like this picture. When things are too big, I feel overwhelmed and incredibly uncomfortable... almost scared. It's the strangest and also the most god-awful feeling, and very few people know I have this problem.